Tuesday, February 27, 2007
♥
11:40 PM
i love him! ! ! !
though its so0 common to have arguments in relationship...
but we got closer after each fight...hehehe:p
7 months...& im glad i still have him by my side...
he has been so loving towards me...
always listening to my crap stories...& nonsense...hehehe:)
he knows how to console me when im down...
so0 far he's been there for me when i need him...
though we still have disagreements...we will try to sort things out...& we did!
im proud to have u!!!
are u reading this? u better be...hehehe:p
coz i think i wouldnt find any other guy who would love me like he does...
S-sayang me so0 much
A-always lend a listening ear
D-dare to love me...(cz i can be a handful)
I-irreplaceable...irresistible...yum...yumzz...hehehe..
K-kelakar!! dat means funny btw...
so0...dats about all...
well i can go on...&on....& on....
but i have project to do lah...better get back to it NOW!!
...NG...
♥
8:41 PM
:(
things arent going so0 well...
wat is happening...
am i to0 mean...?
was i to0 naggy?
am i to0 worried?
do u think i am always disagreeing with what u do?
i cant eat...
i cant think properly...
i cant do anything without u in mind...
...NG...
Sunday, February 25, 2007
hate it.... ♥
10:00 PM
haiz...going where...when...with who...
is it ok if i say u cant go??
oopzz...did i say something wrong?
ohh...i forgot...i cant stop u from going places...
though U can stop me...
have u ever wondered how it feels like...
to be in my position...
worrying...fearing...juz feeling scared...
well...put urself in my shoes then...
& ask yourself that...
would u actually allow me...? & stop me from going?
its been really a hectic week for me...
not only at my work place...
but at home to0...
for once...i allow Me..Myself...& I....
talk things on my own...
Me was juz worried...though Myself said its ok...& I manage think positively...
u must be thinking im over-reacting...
always worrying about small matters...
dats juz me...
sometimes when im angry...
i juz dun feel like talking...
& u know that...
i will burst it out...
in a calm way of coz...
when im ok to talk again...
things do get out of hand...
one moment everything's ok...
the next thing u know...something's wrong...
...NG...
Friday, February 23, 2007
NUH ♥
9:47 PM
NUH...! ! !2 wks there...
the journey is really far!!
1st dat was ok coz started at 8am...
but had to take a cab the next day...
& it costs me $8.90...
2 days of my allowance...
but my mum gave me cash ar...
hehehe:p
now i have transport...
my frenz pick-up truck...
lolzz...co0l huh...
so0 i no need to worry so0 much if im working morning with her...
can get free ride...
lucky she pass by my house...
anw...work was ok lah...
slow pace...abit of work here & there...
still prefer TTSH though its VERY busy...
here at NUH is more relax...
juz 3 days there...
1 more week to go with a case study to finish up...
but dunno why everytime reach home...
i feel so0 tired...& exhausted...
juz wanna sleep...sleep...sleep....
though i dont get that much hrs of sleep...
due to the temp. in my room...
evrytime i feel HOT!!!
keep on tossing...& turning...
after a while when i finally sleep...
the next thing i know i have to wake up...lolzzz..:p
time really flies....
wooossshhh....
3 more wks left before i graduate!
arghhhh!!!!!
anw tomorrow going to this career/ job fair at suntec...
hopefully i can get some info about other areas in nursing....
...NG...
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
worried me... ♥
10:39 AM
wat worried me so0 much...was wen u went there to have ur supper...
but til 5am! like...i juz cant....nvm....
well...u should put urself in my shoes
& see how u would react...
then u will understand my situation...
i never thought i would get this worried...
but was i over reacting?
was i?? am i in the wrong to be angry with u...??
u knew i didnt agree with the trip...
yet u insist of going...
though at last i did agree...
but wat if i told u again & again that u cant go...
then u would be thinking im controlling u...
& the more u will wanna go...
u told me that last time u would usually go there...
last time was last time...
now is now...im here...arent i?
last time u dont have to tell anyone...
so0 u can go wherever u want to...
now u cant bcoz of me...
that is how i am thinking rite now...
bcoz of me...we kinda disagree...
im glad that u came home safely though...
u must be thinking..like its juz nearby..
so why am i getting so0 worked out rite??
& u did come home...
i myself dunno why im still mad...
i juz cant talk to u rite now...
i dont wish to argue...
im selfish i know...
i do think about me alone...
yet im asking am i in the wrong to be angry....?
coz i dont think i am...
...NG...
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
arghhhhh! ! ! ! ♥
10:15 PM
arghhh!!!! she came!!!
not again...
please lah...
ok...maybe im juz paranoid...
but even my fren says so0...
wat can i do?
confront her??
ask her??
what is she doing??
ok...relax...
its all in me....
i tink...
take it in a positive way...
maybe she's juz testing me...
for some reason or so0....
maybe she wants to see how far i can go???
but still why meeeee???
i juz have to know...
is she juz testing my patience??
is she trying to see how far i can go??
if she is...well...i should show her that i dont care...
when actually i do...
lolzz...:p
but again...maybe im juz over reacting....
dont think i wanna write on about today's episode...
of getting picked on...
or should i ask "test" on...
haiz...seriously if i start...
i wont stop...
coz its boring to hear...& boring to write about...
so0 i'll juz let it be...
& yet again im saying....
we'll see how tmr will go...hoping it will be better...
...NG...
Monday, February 12, 2007
not my day... ♥
9:17 PM
down with flu now....juz ate panadol...haiz....today was juz real bad...
not my day at all...
i was so0 lo0king forward to work today...
since i had nite shift last week...
i thought i could work peacefully...
1st thing i got was scolding...
& i got it for nothing...
coz i didnt do anything wrong...
so i let it be...
then it goes on again...
& again....i juz control myself...
the whole day she was there...
watching over me...
every move...everything i do...
i was like in a prison for a day...
when i wasn't in sight...
she panic...& ask all the staff...
i was juz next door...
picking up things...
wat is wrong??
i juz kept on thinking...
wat did i do wrong dat day....
did i make her angry...
i didnt see her for almost a week...
& i have no clue why she's like dat...
til my day ends...& she left w/o saying a word...
i told all my frenz about it...
she was ok with the rest...
but why pin-point at me...
if i had done something wrong then tell...
why do i have to go through this...
might as well tell...& i learn from it then doing it this way...
i was really pressurize...
even when i was doing my skill...
i had it in mind...but when she was there...i couldnt think...
she was suppose to be by our side...
guiding us...but i cant seem to see her doing that today...
why....im still curious....
if i had the guts to confront her & ask...
but i juz couldnt...
i dont want to make it a big fuss...
but am i?
am i in the wrong to ask...
am i in the wrong to know...
all my frenz juz ask me to hold on...
juz be calm & go through it...
but do they know how i feel....
if this is going to continue...
i dunno if i can...i hope i can...
u know...tahan...
...NG...
Sunday, February 11, 2007
banglow!!! ♥
9:17 PM
woah!! really enjoyed my weekend!!!went to stay at pasir ris bunglow...
with my relativezz!! so0 fun!!
was there on friday...
had family gathering on saturday....
we had games...& BBQ!!!
yum yum!! chicken wingss!!
& ya...at last i watch KRRISH!!!
hindustan movie!! with my hero acting!! lolzz:p
today morning woke up early....
to see the sunrise!!!
it was beautiful...:)
then with my cuzziez...auntiess...uncles...
we went jogging!! co0l!! hehehe:p
then came back to have breakfast....
didnt went cycling though...
half-way watching KRRISH again...& i slept...lolzz
then juz wonder around the bunglow...
& everyone was packing up....
at ard 5+pm...we were outzzz!!
wishing to stay longer..:)
at last reach home safely....
HomeSweetHome...
miss my teddy!! heheh....
...NG...
Thursday, February 8, 2007
♥
11:14 PM
woah...!! went to vivocity! love it!!muackzz!! to0k alot of piczz!!
went to eat....then went window-shopping ar....
cant forget gg into TOY R US....
cutie cant stop looking at the toys....
hehehe...lolzz:p
muackzz!!
thanx for today!! love ya!
really enjoyed my day....:)
where to next...??
hmm...cathay? marina square?
hehehe...still need to buy ur cap! :p
& ya...ben & jerry's to0!
ohh...& my sunglassess...
hehehe....
am i asking to0 much...
er...okok...
no more liao....hehe:p
...NG...
Saturday, February 3, 2007
♥
7:40 PM
weeeeeeeee.....at last met up with my deariezz...maj & cha....
went to esplanade....
had alot to talk about...
miss u galz so0 much!
muackzz..!muackzz!
we ate alot of junkiezz...
polar...nachoz...potato chipzz...
fatty...fatty food....hehehe:p
sat there...& enjoy our day...
went to the roof top...
co0l! 1st time went there...lolzzz:p
took alot of piczz!
so0 fun!
laughing our hearts out...!!
really had a great time...
then went to marina square...
WINDOW-SHOPPING!!
woah...so0 many things on sale...
but no $$$...
hehee....:)
then headed home...
hope to meet with u galz again so0n...
next meeting...watch movie ok! ! ! popcorn! nachozzz!
...NG...
Friday, February 2, 2007
♥
9:32 AM
don't wish to talk about it...coz i don't wish to argue no more...
don't wish to fight about small things...
don't get me wrong...
i juz don't wish to get angry...
nor get u mad bcoz of me...
sometimes i am at fault...
sometimes i juz feel like letting it out...
only sometimes i feel this way...
so0 yet again im saying...
don't get me wrong...
bcoz u know how i can be...
u're the only one who can tolerate me...
my nonsense that i give...
with my attitude that i show...
what else can i say...
what else can i do...
sorie? or should i get angry to0?
fed up coz we seldom meet...
angry coz we're always busy...
sad coz we end up fighting...
cried...
& cried...
tears that juz wont stop falling...
toughlove...
hardlove...
sadlove...
happy moments...
that's what i always try to think about...
juz when we're about to argue...
ohh god...
plz...plz...make us strong...
make us believe that we can go through this all...
me...sensitive...
me...attitude...
me...ego...
i will have my way to let it out...
people always say...go to a happy place...
but u are my happy place in my heart...
...NG...
♥
9:17 AM
hmm...
next week having my nite shift liao...!
skills yet to be done!
keep on arguing wif him...!
having my period!!
arghhh!!!!!
hate it so0 much...
wanna go out...
hope to meet my dearie frenz...maj & cha...
juz call my buddy...rac...
but she's busy today...
so0 really hope i can go out wif them ar...
will my mum allow me...?
hmmm?
maybe....hehehe:p
...NG...