Wednesday, March 28, 2007
mee... ♥
10:30 AM
//am really bored so0 just writing whatever comes to mind...lol//i am me.....
i may be sensitive....but i know what im doing...
i may have some anger in me...but i will calm myself down...
to me life...is like a chameleon...
lolz...coz it will change its colour...to adapt to it...
so0 dat's how my life is to0....
i talk to myself sometimes...& no im not psycho...
just talk about things to myself...or i would prefer writing...
or typing in here...or the best one is to talk to my buddy!! rachel i miss u! ! !
some people dont like the way i do things...
or should i say dont like the way i handle things...
i might be angry with u but i dont show it...
i'll just keep it aside...til i think its ok to talk about it...
so0 i dont like people forcing me to tell my problem...
if not i wont even say a word...
i have this bad thing of expecting things to happen...
& when it doesn't...i feel great disappoinment in me...
woah...really down i tell ya...really bad thing....
so0 i've tried taking things the way it is...
& i feel so0 wonderful...weeee:)
but still i cant stop that feeling...lol...
haiz...i just have so0 many things that i wanna do...
watch movies...eat popcorn...nachozz...
going out til late at nite...with my frenz...
learning how to cook...er...ya...i dont cook by the way...lol
managing my time to do work...read the books that i have...
taking lots & lots of pictures...buying new phone...bagzz...shoezzz
omg...shopping spreee! ! !
going around the world...going haj...umrah...
learn how to bake cookies...cakes...& ya at least i know how to make jelly ok! hehe:p
as i said those are the things i want...
but i will just have to stick to the things i need...& i have...
i may dream big...having this & that...going here & there...
but if i dont have the most important thing in life with me...
i dont think i would be here typing this...
that is to have GOD....my family....& the love ones....
mmmuackzzz! love u all !!! missing everyone i know...
everyone i had meet ever since i was born...that includes u! !
hehehe...lolzzz:p
so0 much to say...yet so0 little time...
well...not for me! ! ! hehehe...
i have to whole day...not going out is just bluek...
its ok though coz i have my laptop...tv...fo0d!
& bookz...computer...diary...to fill me in...
lalalalala....
woah...& 1 last thing about me...
is that i can be really serious at a point in time...
where no one shall speaks...& i want that thing to be done...
& there's me...that tries to make people laugh...
i think i just make myself laugh is the easiest...lol! ! !
in life...u have to laugh....i mean really....hehehe....
* a note from NG *
to have happiness in life...u just need to always remember that GOD is always there for us...
believe in HIM...trust in HIM...be happy with the life that u have now...alhamdulilah...:)
...NG...
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
♥
9:12 AM
was tired...but was awake...went to bed thinking i would fall asleep...really sleepy...still i cant sleep...
sms him..thinking i could chat wif him til i doze off...
well...he was playing his xbox...
nvm den...will just try to sleep...
said a few prayers...then went off at about 12+am...zzZZzz...
at 2.30am!! woke up...feeling hot!!
wat is wrong with the air-con!!
or izzit me...? arghh...
toss my blanket away...turn this side...nah...
turn the other side...still cant sleep...
haiz...lo0k at my hp thinking he sms me...nothing....
:( was really exhausted...i really really wanted to sleep...
but i cant...i was thinking...sat up...almost cried...
again...i said some prayers...at 3+ am i doze off...
omg...my sisters were really making a big fuss...
it was alrdy 5+am...they were getting ready for school...
haiz...normal routine...arguing away...while i try my best to ignore them...
ok...u know what...i force myself to wake up...
went to the toilet...then did my morning prayers...
it was still early...so0 i sat down at the table...
woah...i was waiting to eat breakfast with my parents...
weee..its been so0 long since i eat together during wkdays...
then i remembered i had some chores to do...
quickly i went to do it...
hang all the clothes...
when i finally finish...
i came back just to know that everyone had thier breakfast...
again...i had no mood...as usual...i will skipped it...
will eat during lunch time...
:( nevermind...my parents went to work...
& lastly my sis went off to school...
then it was just me to the whole house!!
woah...weee...lalalala....
my bed was calling out to me...
so0 i took off....*zzZZzz*
that was what i thought...
still tossing & turning...
alamak....cannot make it...
he sms me asking me if i was gg to bed...
after i reply...i was finally sleepy...
i close my eyes...i was in LALA land at last...
zzZZzzZZzzZZ....
then...my hp rang! ! ! ! ohhhmyygod...
ok...it must be really important...
when i look..it was him again...
& u know what..he ask me again the same qns...
that he just ask 30 mins ago!!
ohh god...pleassee...
i couldnt take it...
i just scream...arghhh....& i cool myself down...
i needed that...astagfirullah...
its ok...
maybe i should just wake up...
no point trying to sleep again...
i knew i cant go back to sleep anymore...
so0 here i am...
* a little note from NG *
jangan terikut2 sangat dgn ego...& emosi kita...
kita harus bersabar...
banyak kn ishtifar...
...NG...
Monday, March 26, 2007
out wif mum! ♥
10:48 PM
weee...! ! ! ! !
mum took half day off...as she was really tired...asked me to meet her to buy some things at NTUC...
so0 met her at about 1pm...manage to get our things w/o going to NTUC...:p
i was starving so0 i told her to have lunch outside instead..
took her to pizzahut!! woah...ate alot!! lolzz...
well...once in a while...it wont hurt...hehehe:p
we ate & talked about stuff...
finally its only me & my mum...
its been quite a while since i have the time alone with her...
it was great...having fun! :)
after our ice-cream...we were so0 full that we couldnt eat dinner at home...lolzzz!!
woah...we were bloated!! hehehe...
i dont know when is the next time i would be able to have time with her...
everyone in my family is so0 busy...
working & studying...that is the 'thing' here in s'pore...
we rarely have time for each other...but im lucky bcoz...
my mum make it a point for us to have dinner together as a famliy...:)
i wouldnt know how will my family be...? working 24/7?
in s'pore if u dont work...u will never survive...everything is just so0 expensive...
& time is so0 precious...but i know...i wont have to worry now about it...
when i start working...then i would have to manage my time...i cant wait to go work...
its kinda boring at home now...lolzz..
& im in need of cash!!!! omg....
* a little note from NG *
don't always think that the things u want in life...
is the thing that u will be happy with...
be happy with whatever u have...
appreciate what GOD has given u...
life will be meaningful everyday...
if we don't expect things to happen...
HE has planned everything for us...
:)
...NG...
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
♥
2:57 PM
so0 fun!finally met up with my dearie maj...mmuackzz..:)
we talk...& talk.....hehehe...
its been weeks since we've meet...
thought of rounding at toa payoh...
but decided to sit at coffeebean & chat....
catch up wif things happening...
so0 much to talk about...
yet so0 little time...
so0...tmr meet lagi??
hehehe:p
next stop novena!!
*a little note from NG*
solat asar
= satu fardhu yg ditinggalkn dgn sengaja dosanya sama seperti meruntuhkn KA'ABAH..!!
...NG...
Monday, March 19, 2007
me...myself & i... ♥
10:57 AM
lalalalalalala.......
me....me...close up....i likeee the pic...
woah...really bored lah....been at home for the past few dayz liao....
clean up my drawer...fuh...very messy! lolzz...
went to clean up the house the next day...
hmm...am trying to finish up my storybook! really interesting...
my dear frenzz...on friday? how? everyone so0 quiet...
where are u guys...??
went for holiday already??
hehe...maj!!! when are we meeting up...??
my buddy!! rac...went m'sia w/o me!! :p
anw...we also have to meet up...hopefully with ritu & mira:)
must meet everyone!!! hehe...before i start working...
once i start...i wont know when i can meet u guyss!
am missing u all to0 much....until in my LALA land also i dream about u all!!
hehehehe...!!
& of coz U...i know u're busy working...u wanna meet me in july rite?
can....i cabar u!! bluek:p
see if u can wait...
* a little note from NG *
never...never talk back to your parents!
anak yg derhaka dgn ibubapa akan dibalas di dunia & juga akhirat!!
if u think u run from the sins...think again...bcoz once u have your own child...
he/she will do the same to you....
...NG...
Friday, March 16, 2007
my school days are over... ♥
9:03 PM
2 years has pass...
my school days are over...
just today i wanted to iron my uniform...
then i realise...
that we are done now...
no more...the daily routine i use to had...
i felt super sad...
i noe i did cry...
i tried holding back...
but when the thought that we are now going our separate ways...
i felt sad...though happy that we are now enrolled nurses...
no more a student....
working life now...
had my interview...
am praying that i will do get the job...
my dear attachment buddies...
never will i forget u guys...
thanks for everything!! mmuackzzz!!
KAK NAD- our mummy in the group...thanx for ur advices...
IS- the joker...protecting us...big in size...but has a bigger heart...
NIAH- pretty lady..! :p always having something funny to say or do...
YANA- dancer...loves to bug pple...hehehe:p u're still pretty as u are...
AISHAH- the "quiet" one...sometimes in her own world...once she's with yana...chaoz!!this 2 cant be separated!!
FEZA- my dearie tiny fren...always kena bully by me...lolz:p though small but has a big voice! hehe:)
AIN- my makan buddy!! hehe...will miss her cooking!! & of coz u to0!!
SARAS- wat? can repeat? heheh...dats wat she always say...hey...will miss ur laughter lah ok..:)
NAVIN- my classmate!! my mr bean! always have something to laugh about with him...
DINI- puts her hp 1st then everything!! heheh:p
KEN- always see him busy talking to the patients...he's got alot to talk about..hehe...
PEI YING- the girl who doesnt like to take pictures!! but force her to on the last day..lolzz:p
ZI YUAN- the one who got a surprising A...:) finally work wif ya this last 2 weeks...had fun!!!
MIRI- the new fren we had...crazy dancer...always has her crappyness in whatever she do...still she gets things done...
u guys rock my world!!
will miss all your nonsense & crappy jokes...
had fun dancing around on the last day...
all the hard times we had gone through...
it was all worthwhile...
i love u guys so00 much!!!
pleaseee do0 keep in touch ya!!
mmmuackkzz!!
& of coz to my classmatess...
how can i ever forget all those days we had...
in lecture hall...in class...in cafe...in SIM...
miss u guys alot more...!!
hope all u guys are doing well...
really look forward to the graduation day...
thanx alot to my dear maj..whose always there when i need her...
& also to my dear cha..who gave me laughter...
though i wasnt wif u two during attchment...i still think of u galss!!:)
thanx to my classmates...who made my 2 years of nursing life the best one ever...
thanx to my lecturers who has been there to teach & advice me through all these times...
will not forget the moments we had together...
though good or bad...
we still had FUN....!!
* a little note from NG *
sometimes GOD gives chance to the people who do more sins so that he would be able to repent & ask for forgiveness...
...NG...
Saturday, March 10, 2007
juz smile even when you're down.. ♥
12:06 PM
i feel different...i don't feel me...i can't be myself...coz when i do...you some how take it away...
i am who i am...so0 don't act as if you have me...
when i get angry over something...
i'll get over it so0n...
so0 don't stop me from letting it out...
you say u know me...
well i think you don't...
coz u change the way i am now...
i know its bad enough that i scold...
but its for a reason...
you know i don't do that unless its neccessary...
you think im changing for the better...
you think i can go on like this forever...
think again...
im not the girl you want me to be...
i was the girl i am then...
now im you...coz u change it all...
complicated it may seem...
but i know what im doing is right...
so0 don't stop me from being me...
i may be emotional at times...
i may get angry over things...
that's just who i am...
though i try to be normal...
but ur normal is abnormal to me...
coz its not me...
sometimes the things that you want in me...
is just the things i can't be...
so0 let me be who i wanna be...
yes...i did stop you at times...
then you said i was controlling...
now im not...so0 don't ask me why...
* a little note from NG *
we need to have patience in whatever we do...
semangkin banyak ilmu kita pelajari...
semangkin banyak ujian dari tuhan...
...NG...
Monday, March 5, 2007
IMH... ♥
10:55 PM
IMH!!!!!omg...the place is super huge!!
seriously! hehehe:p
1st day there...
was kinda excited...
though there was abit of fear to0...
had a talk....then tea time...
after that had our tour ard...
was really really big! i tink i can get lost in it...hehehe:)
then had to go to the ward of coz...
saw a few patients waiting for us to let them out...
some were friendly...some were ok...
manage to feed them during their tea time...
& i notice that they help each other out...
pushing the wheelchairs & bed out to the other room...
then we did colouring to0...
some knew how to draw...
some juz walk ard looking at us...
it was fun....
though i still have to get use to them...
& also the surroundings...
cant wait to see how it will be like in the afternn...
*a little note from NG *
solat zuhur
=satu fardhu yg ditinggalkn dgn sengaja dosanya menyamai seperti membunuh 1000 nyawa org islam!!
...NG...
Sunday, March 4, 2007
career fair ♥
10:00 PM
decided to go to the career fair at suntec...
with my dear ain...
& she brought her funny frenz along...
anuar...hanan...jaja!
& some others to0...
had so0 much fun...
though there wasnt much on nursing...
coz it was on LAST THURS!!!!
arghhh! hate it....
haiz...though we did kinda sign up for paramedic...
juz having another option for myself...
after that...we had dinner at KFC...
then i headed home...
& tmr will be a new day at IMH!!!
woah!! hope im gonna have fun with the patients there...:p
*a little note from NG*
meniggalkn solat dgn sengaja...
solat subuh
= satu fardhu yg ditinggalkn dgn sengaja, allah akan mencampakknya ke dlm neraka selama 60 tahun!!
...NG...
Friday, March 2, 2007
tiredness.. ♥
1:14 PM
yesterday was my last day at NUH...
really gonna miss the patients there...
love them...muackzzz..
anw to my 2 savers...heroinez...for the day...
saniah...& peiying...
thanx!! if not for them...i would be on the floor...:p
thanx to my matess...& the pple around me...
for your care & concern...
special thanx to is...who keepz on reminding me of the incident....
hehehehe:p
lolzzz...
anw...im ok! :) "standing" on my own liao...
was really an unforgettable incident...
or memory...though not a good one...
but i will remember it forever!
the day pass really well...
did all i could...manage to bid go0dbye..
to my beloved patients....:) & also the staffs...whom i worked with...
ohhya...something kinda happen in the train...
on my way home...
was feeling tired & giddy...
had a seat...& fell asleep...
was in my dreamland...
thinking about going to IMH...
then i felt something real hard on my leg...
someone actually kinda pushed me...
my leg onli of coz...
i woke up suddenly...
& eyes were upon me...
i was like...wat did i do...
was still blurr...check the time...
thought i miss my stop...
then i saw 2 small kids infront of me...
so0 i stood up to give my seat...
the mum was staring at me...
then ask her children to sit down...
in my heart... i was like...wat?
i dunno wat am i suppose to react lah...
i thought maybe a smile or thank u...would be nicee...
when i was already standing then i realize...
that the mum was the one who actually push me...
so0 that i would wake up to give my seat...
i mean...i would seriously give my seat to the needy if i knew...
i was seriously knocked off...
& of coz i didnt realize the kids were there...
in my thoughts...she was angry that i didnt give up my seat...
til she woke me up...
wait...is that really neccesary..the pushing??
i dunno to u all lah...
but she could have just woken me up or something...
my sis told me not to be so0 over-reacting...
but seriously...juz becoz she sees me in my uni...
she can do that??
well...nevermind...i did manage to give my seats before they alight...
for the people who dunno...
nurses are also human beings...
they have the feeling of tiredness to0...
i seriously didnt mind giving up my seat for the kids...
but i think that shouldnt be the way...
i know s'poreanz are also very considerate...juz a small minor grp which is the oppsite thats all...
maybe other people think its ok...
well to me its not...
its kinda rude...& i know not all of our people are like dat...
im juz saying this in my own view...
...NG...