Love.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

haiz....super boring weekend... ♥ 8:57 AM

woah!!
at last we can finally do h/c with confidence...
hehehehe:p

we had to finish up the course before we're able to do it...
funny thing was...
we had done it so0 many times during our sch attchmnt...:p

still i enjoyed myself...with fiza of coz...
2-day course was superb....
coz after that we went shopping!!

heheh...:p
on thurs we went round lo0king for things but didnt buy...
yesterday...i spend $40!

a total cost for A shoe...& pants!!!
woohooo...
just lovee the SALE...when i have cash that is....:p

nothing to do...lolzz...
today am back to the ward...
next week am working nite!!!

like omg...so0 fast....
well...cant do anything about it...
at least i did my shopping alrdy...

when are we meeting?
sun? next week?
you've not even reply to my email...

*shrugs shoulders*
don't know what to say....
busy i guess....haiz...

...NG...

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

my off day ♥ 12:24 AM

my off day was just BLUEK...
waking up knowing that i made someone precious to me angry...
was just yucky...i just wanted to sleep the whole day...!!

my mind was like...
" why...why did i say that yesterday nite..."
omg...am so0 sorie for blurting out on the phone...

hope everything is gonna be fine...
watch my fav show 'judging amy'
had lunch...on the lappy...while the tv was on...

a loong lost fren call...
heheh...well...not that long...& definately not lost...:p
zal!! from ritz call....

was kind of surprise...
just catch up on things...
i knew there was a reason why he call...

he's now working...
AIA consultant...
co0l right...heheh...

well...u know the reason why then...
talk about CPF...getting a house...
retirement...

woahhh...
i was like...hmmm...
i didnt think of all that YET....lolzzz:)

told mummy about it...
though still thinking to meet up & talk...
about all those above...

anw...am trying to get another hp...
mum asked me to see coz its almost like...
2 years??

our plan...ending so0n...
if my lil sis change...
so0 will i...mum...& dad...

coz all our plan are at the same timing...
hehehe:p
hmm...

nokia again?? motorola again??
thinking of sony...
hmmm....i want a better camera hp pleaseeee....:)

i was touched when i read ur blog...
i wanted to tell u how much i love it....
but ended up with something else....
well...that's not the 1st time...

...NG...

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

the wonderful part! ♥ 9:58 PM

like FINALLY...
me & fiza...
we had the same shift...

1st thing in mind was...
"lets go out after work"
heheh...:p & we did...

thought of going esplanade...
then...wanted to go marina...
but decided to eat at lucky plaza...

so0 we manage to finish work EARLY...
like 3pm...!
btw we end work at 2.30pm...

nvm that...nothing will stop our eating outing...
still went lucky plaza...
searching high & low for this nasi penyet that fiza recommended...

haiz...we search & search...
but was to0 hungry...
so0 we ate at this indo stall...

the dishes lo0ks tempting...
& gosh we were hungry...
so0 we decided to eat there...

yummmyzzzz....that's what I call FOOD....:)
okok...let me tell u what we had...

that's chicken noodle with beefballs...yum yum...mine!

that's ayam bakar with rice...fiza's!! well...actually i kinda forgot what they call it...but that's what she ate...lolzz...:p
& had keropok to0! with 2 lemon tea drinks...

we sat & talk....& talk...
all i can say is that we had about 3-4 customers who came in after us...
& left...but we're still there talking...

hehehehe!!
well...its the ONLY time that we have to talk...
& we had lots of fun! it was hilarious...

fiza just started with mama chua...
& we made up a ridiculous imaginative working environment...
long story short...we had ALOOT of giggles...& laughters....

i enjoyed myself...
it was kind of a de-stress eating outing...
hehehe...

i think we spent almost an hour there...
then decided to walk around for a while...
at paragon...

went toilet...then the picture taking start...
hehehe! u know me & my hp...

capturing...deleting...
was in the toilet for like...
more than 5 mins...just to take picz...:)

then we're off to abit of shopping spree...
well..actually we manage to go to A shop...
coz it was late alrdy...

then headed home...
enjoyed ourselves...
the day was well spend...

love u fiza!!
hope we will be able to go out like this again...
this time round with ain & niah ok...:)

am lucky that i have her around to bully...
hehehe:p kidding2....
at least i have her to pour out about the work probz to...

yet again im saying...& praying...
insha-allah we will be able to go through this...
we're not alone....

we will be the MICU duo...! ! !

...NG...

awful...& wonderful... ♥ 9:34 PM

yesterday...i just wish to forget all about it & move on...

now i can say that i've seen the other side of working life...
the one where i have been always trying to avoid...
comments...feedback...pushing around...

this is just the beginning...
just when i was about to start work...
i heard it all...

what bad way to start working right....
i know...
tried to put everything aside...

telling fiza everything will be ok...
no worries...
she was almost in tears...

i had to be strong...
& i thought i was...
9.30pm...went to change...

i couldn't hold back my tears no more...
& i broke down...
i was not confident at all...

i laugh at myself for being such a baby...
but who am i...
i'm still a human being with feelings...

some people just don't understand...
the pressure...being told what to do...
not being able to do things correctly...

making a mistake...not sure what is right & wrong...
not having anyone to guide...
being pushed around...

i'm just pointing out some bad apple...
i have to push myself...
i have to think of all the positive things...

on the way home...
i told fiza all about it...
she understood what i was going through...

thanx girl...!! for listening...
mmmuackzz!

when i reach home...
all i wanted to do was sleep...
but i couldn't...

baby call me...
& of coz i told all about it to0...
i cried again...

he was there to console me...
he advised me...he made me STOP crying...lolzzz
love u! mmmuackzz...

next morning...
they saw me...
they knew something was up when i wasn't ready yet for work...

& i told them about it to0...
mum & dad advised me...
they cared...love u all...mmmuackzz:)

am still here standing...
will insha-allah make it through...
with GOD's help...& guidance...

...NG...

Saturday, June 23, 2007

me & rac... ♥ 9:57 AM

weee...
am having so0 many afternn shift...
loving it...pple want morning coz they can go out later...

for me...i dont mind...
coz i wont go out...
so0 prefer afternn...

though not in favour...
if i work the next morning...
arghh...can feel the tirednesss....

anw...anw....
i went out last wed....

see...? that's my mysterious buddy...
hehehee:p
mmmuackzz! lovee her lotzz...

at last i got to meet her...
we catch up on ALOOT of thingss...
just ever so0 many stories...in our lives...

woah....this time round our 'makan' place...
STARBUCKSS!!!
use to be long john...

had my fav...
frappacino chocolate blended cream plzzz...& oreo cheeesecake....
yummmyyummzzz...:)

had a long talk....
serious one...
heheh:p plus me & my jokes...lolzzz!

after that...went to esplanade...
fav place...just sit down...
enjoy the so0 call 'niccee' view now...

with construction going on...
on the left & right...
lolzzz...:p

then on thurs...after work...
met us...met we...
spend some time...

didnt talk that much...
though u know i always wanna talk...
but i just kept quiet...

not wanting to start another commotion...
enjoyed the day...
then went off to airport to fetch my cuzzie!!

miss him lotss...
came back here for his holzz...
cant wait to go out with all my cuzzies...

next is my dearie cuzzie...
YAYA...8th july....
weeee.....:)

then took the sky train...
(in the pic)...
tired loo0king lil sis there...coz it was late liao...

wondering....
when i reach to0 early at work...
nothing to do...

thinking...about everything...
work....family....my life...
trying my best to make all happy...

still not doing it right...
am still trying to put away my ego...
at work im fine...i just keep it all to myself...

but once i change out of my scrubs...
all my tiredness...my probzz...
arghhh...the feeling so0 yucky...

didnt feel like going home yesterday...
i just to0k my own sweet time...
read some messages on the central desk...

change my clothes at my own pace...
no rushing...no stressing...
just me & my life...

what am i talking???
hehehe:p
lolzz....

anw...cant wait to meet up with my attchment frenzz...
weeeee....
hope we can meet lah...:)

after we get our pay...
then shopping spreee...
hehehe...

stress...freee......

ps...btw...i dont want u to feel that im forcing u to read my bloggy...
i just thought maybe at least u would know what's happening in my life...
for the day...i get that excitement once i see a new post in ur own blog..u seldom post coz u say u have no idea what to write...no matter...its ok if u dont read mine...im not in any losing position...
not being angry...not being ego...not being emotional...
trying to be the girl u want me to be...being happy with my life...
not asking for more...

making people happy is my passion...
hoping im doing it right...trying not to make a big scene with every little thing...

alhamdulilah...im loving my job...ain't nothing is gonna make it bad...
i hope...& pray...that i can go all the way...:)

...NG...

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

--smokers-- ♥ 8:09 AM

for today...since im free...& i've just read something which i would like to share...

to my deariez out there who smoke...just listen to me for a while can...

take a 10 mins break...& read what i've got to share with u...

okok....mmmuackzz!

i've been wanting to say something..well here goes...
that's the magazine which i just read...

i know...i know...
its this advice yet again im telling...

when i 1st saw that pic my heart skipped a beat...
my beloved frenz came into mind...

my own love one...

i just can't imagine my own love ones...
just die because of this...smoking...

i use to be a pressurized fren...
who always tell my frenz off not to smoke...

i didnt understand how hard it is to let it go...
but i went on to read from websites..to magazines...

now im just giving some tips...
plz...do read on ok...

*NOTE*

--a pack cost= abt $11...--

in a week = $77...

in a month = $330...

in 6 months = $1980

in 1 year = $3960!!!!

within a year u can SAVE so0 much!
can u imagine how many clothes & accessories...

shoes...bags...even saving up to get married...
my dears...it is worth...to leave smoking aside...

*TRUTH*

would u like to eat mothballs for breakfast?

before that would u like to rinse your mouth with detergent?

or what about an afternoon snack of ANT POISON?

(taken from the magazine)

that is just what u my dear frens...
is actually inhaling..the chemicals...harmful??

*nodding head* yes it is...

90% LUNG CANCER cases are related to SMOKING...( from the magazine)

its a leading cause in MEN...

2nd most common in WOMEN...

more deaths than drugs...alcohol...& AIDS...combined together...

9 out of 10 smokers will get hit...:(
can u imagine that??

u cant see the effects/symptoms yet...
coz when a lump develops...u wont know...

but coughing...very intense...& persistance...
chest pain...weight loss...double vision...

pain...headaches...
these are just few which u can see...

*TIPZZ DURING QUITTING*

~ Stay away from smoke-filled places

~ When u crave to smoke..get up..take a walk..breathe deeply...
keep urself occupied...

~ Take up new hobbies..excercise more often..

~ Feeling tired or start coughing...its just a SIGN...
that ur body is adjusting...

its getting get of the toxins...

~ Fill up on plain water...& go bed early...

~ You don't have to quit ALONE...I'm HERE!!! mmuackzz!
ask support from ur non-smoking frenz....:)

*PREVENT*

when u quit...

u cut down the RISK of having LUNG CANCER!!

after 20mins..a smoker's blood pressure drops...

8 hours later...the level of carbon monoxide will return to normal...

BUT...there is always a BUT...

DON'T WAIT TOO LONG TO QUIT...

because it will take all 10 YEARS..

to half the RISK of LUNG CANCER!!

our body will not heal overnight...

not after being abused for so0 many years...

so the earlier u QUIT...

the more time ur body can heal...:)

*LOVE*

i really really hope u guys actually get some info about smoking...

how dangerous it is...

i lovee u all every much...mmmuackzz!!

i know people say i KPO...but its just that...

i care about u all u know...! heheh:p

thanx for reading...

( info..facts...from 'lifewise' magazine )

PS..i took almost an hour to type this out right...i dont mind...

coz i do this to help u all...

i really hope it does...

do comment it ya...hehe...:p

if i say something wrong or watsoever...

I DONT WISH TO SEE MY OWN LOVE ONES ON THE BED HAVING THIS DEADLIEST CANCER...

I CANT IMAGINE IT...

AM SO0 PROUD THAT SOME OF U ARE ACTUALLY REDUCING...

GO ALL THE WAY!!!

IF WE CAN PREVENT IT...THEN DO IT...

I KNOW IT TAKES ALOT OF PATIENCE...

DONT SMOKE OUT YOUR LIFE THIS WAY...

...NG...

Monday, June 18, 2007

like...whatever ♥ 10:37 AM

i don't know what's wrong...

~having bad diarrhoea...arghh...still need to go work...~

i know i had made people angry...
i apologize...
me & my ego sometimes...

due to my tiredness at work...
now i understand how u feel...
when u really have no mood to talk...

but now...blaming me & my work...
didnt i just explain saying im tired...
u know its due to that...

i know i still have to cope with the fact that i have to come home each day...
after work...tired yet still need to try my very best to layan everyone...
my family...& whoever...

im not being arrogant when i say this...
but i do sacrifice my time for my beloved family...
been going out after work just to spend time with them...

i miss them alot...i miss all my frens...
i still need time to adjust...
to this new environment...

do understand when im cranky...
& i do say sorrie if i know im abit off...
i know i can go abit out of hand...

im still learning to cope with this working world...
alhamdulilah...
nothing major has come up yet...

nowadays i just dont feel like talking...
why cant i for a change listen...
cant u tell me anything new?

maybe talk about something...
i always somehow will talk...
but end up with something else...

my fault...i agree...u agree...
now lets just put a full stop...
period...i have nothing else to say...

gonna bath now...

...NG...

Sunday, June 17, 2007

the week is finally over... ♥ 3:52 PM

my week of tiredness ended up well...
last thurs went to watch FANTASTIC 4...Rise of the silver surfer!!
it was fantastic!! hehe...so0 co0l!!

i went with my sis to catch the 1st movie coz i was working PM shift...
lolzzz...though was tired still i went...
cant miss it this time round...:)

& we saw e adzz for harry potter!!
OMG!! it was awesome...
that i to0 HAVE to watch...insha-allah...:p

well...that's thurs...
yesterday...was superb!
after work...came home to wash up...

then head off to my aunt hse...
my relatives from m'sia came down...
& my dear anak sedare was super CUTE!!!

see!! full of cuteness!!
cute big eyes...:)
so0 adorable...love her lotss!!

then after solat maghrib...
my family & my aunt's family went shopping!!
at john little...somerset....woahhooo!!

as we were walking towards the carpark...
we saw ambulance...fire engine...red rhino...
the 1st thing i thought was...FIRE...

but when we lo0ked up...
a lady was hanging on to her life outside her window grill...
was either trying to go in her hse...or going out....

BIG commotion...
they used up alot of man power...
like seriously...i think more than 20 civil defence...also paramedics...on stand by...

took almost 30 mins to bring her down...
flashes...hpz were all out...
like...what...c'mon ar...someone is freaking out up there...

anw....they manage to bring her down safely...
*claps* to all the heroes for the night...
now back to my shopping spree...

by the time we went there we had barely 30 mins to shop...
all split up...
me & sis went to lingerie section...

wohoo...!! so0 many people...
& before we know it...
announcement saying it was closed!!

heheheh!!...grab the things we had & headed to the cashier...
my uncle belanje us all...
thanx lotss!!

then went to starbucks...co0l!!
sat down while my uncle ordered drinks...
i wanted so000 much to eat oreo cheese cake...

so0 i went to get myself one...
my uncle saw me...& came over to order it..2!!
power!! had my delightful oreo cheesecake!!!

thanx to my uncle who belanje us all for the night...
at last my oreo cheesecake...
been craving for it for so000 long....

:) yummmzzz!!
so0 after our supper...
we head home....

bed calling!!! zzZZzzz....

...NG...

Thursday, June 14, 2007

another working day... ♥ 11:28 PM

ahh....just had my supper...
glass of milk & kuih baulu..
& i just finish reading happeepill...

:) feel kinda tired...
though im hoping to catch fantastic four with my lil sis tmr...

work was ok...
busy as usual...
am just losing weight i think...

coz i don't eat that much during my break time...
& if im on PM shift...
i come home...bath...pray & sleep...

to0 tired to eat..
so0 my poor tummy will be empty...
til the next morning...

anw...finish work late again...
was so0 frustrated with bus 238!!!
i rush from novene to tp mrt...

just to see a lo0ng queue...
so0 many people!!!!
wanted to sit but forget it!! i had to stand throughout...

lolzzz...watever...
there are alot of buses...
but sometimes at peak periods there are ONLY a few....

that is so0 annoying coz people...
like me!! rush home...
to sleep...coz my scedule is so0 tight...

i could be PM today...
then i have to wake up in a few hours time...
to work in AM....

haiz...anw...can u pleaseee update ur blog...
i know u just had one...
i mean..aiyah...nevermind...

i know u're to0 busy...
& to0 tired...
so0 forget it...

ego me again....arghhh!!!
always no time for me...
neither do i have for u...

...NG...

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

work was hectic! ♥ 11:23 PM

work was hectic...thought it was just going to be another afternoon shift...
man i was wrong!!! though i had some empty beds...
2 was filled in an hour or two...

knew work was gonna be tight when they arrive...
spend almost an hour in a single room...
my work was not done due to it...

had to do it after everything else...
though my sn help me...
but still there's things to do...

til when sister saw me...
she quickly ask me to go for break 1st...
coz she know if i stay i would have to drag til another hr or so...

so0 i went for break...& came in as so0n as i finish my food...
didnt care much if i hadn't taken up 45 mins of my break time...
i knew my work was still not done...

manage to do it...everything was settle til another incident happen...
woah...back to hectic situation...
i was busy while my sn all were running to help another...

9+ i was still doing some topping up...
then i felt relieve...
coz my work was done...

i learn quite alot today...
CVP....IA...now i really did assist the doc...
& it was the charming one!! hehe...:p

though i was lost...
like a penguin in the sahara desert!!
i observe & learn myself...with some help of the advnc dip students...

*yawnzzz*

that was work...back to my own life...
not thinking much...
i know u're busy...im busy...

all we could say everyday is "im off to work" " im on the way home"
we're lucky enough to talk at night if we have the same shift on...
if not then forget about talking...

both of us will be in lala land...
like me now...*yawnzz*
im just missing all my buddies...

esp rachel...its been quite a while since i spoke to her...
wonder if she's doing ok in KKH...
haiz...people are so0 busy with working life...

just to live!! & earn cash...
im just lucky coz i love my job...
alhamdulilah i am...

i pray hard that i can go on...
i hope i would have this love & passion in my work...
everyday is always a new day...with new things...:)

...NG...

Sunday, June 10, 2007

woah...working...arghh,,,, ♥ 11:06 AM

i've been really exhausted...
coming home at nite...
going to work at 7am the next morning...

& my off day is like a week away...
ohh god...
i hope i can go through this week...

all sorts of things that i have in mind...
every nite i would think about it...
am lucky that i can actually sleep...

crying is just something i do...
when its just to0 much...
coz i know i cant do anything but wait...

still trying my best to work...
now i realise how stress it is there...
things need to be done FAST...

i'm praying each day that i can cope...
i love it...i just love the way they work...
FAST...& all done...

bad moments i had...
i manage to overcome...thank god...
i have to keep on reminding myself of the things needed to be done...

its never easy...
work is NEVER easy...
maybe i'll give myself 3 more mnths...to be able to cope...

that smile will not fade...
coz i know u're still waiting...
& i hope we will last forever...

am sorry for u know what...
told u all about it on the phone last nite...
really2 wish that we could meet up again so0n....

losing u isn't what i want...
not EVER....
i need u...u know i do...

i may tell u not to do things...
but its for ur own good...
at least that's what im thinking for...

get well so0n...
pleaseee take care!!
mmmuackzzz!!

...NG...

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

omg...the work load! ♥ 5:15 PM

was sleepy on the way to work...
couldn't open up my eyes...
but once i reach...i was ready!!

my 1st working day alone...
no one to follow me around anymore...
i had to work as if i was already an EN...

i thought i could do it...
little did i know...
the things i did was right but there are other's missing...

i did manage to do half...
the other half was always forgotten...
arghh!! hate it...but i remain my cool...

tried to catch up...
still had help from the SN...
they help me alot! guiding me when im lost....

well...maybe i was to0 confident...
i thought i could do it on my own...
but i seriously needed help....

was relieve after all was done...
*smilezzz* as fiza came in for PM shift...
it means my time to go home is in half-an hour's time...:)

manage to catch up things with her...
like passing some kind of report...
telling her what happen & all...

i really learn my lesson...
told myself that i must be extra fast & alert...
i can't lay back coz there is always something to do...

insha-allah....i will make it...

P.S heys...im missing u alot ok...& u're working nite later...cant talk to u like yesterday nite...heheh:p had aloot of laughter...planning & all...i still got alot to talk to u about...mmmuackzzz!

...NG...

Monday, June 4, 2007

what happen sey... ♥ 11:49 AM

my...what a day at work yesterday...
not counting to find out my tight scedule...

also having to rush to work last minute today when its my off day...
knowing yet again right when i was about to step out of the house that the talk was re-sceduled to tmr...

like...what...?? i was already trying my best not to keep on thinking about my scedule...
that 2 weeks of work load...
i'll just have to go by each day as a NEW...GREAT...WONDERFUL...day....

am taking it slow now...when i call mum she just ask me to cool down...
"fana...banyak istifargh"
dat's when it just struck me to relax...

everything happens not to my decision...
but to HE'S...
yet i keep on cursing...scolding...being angry...

when i finally get to settle down...
put my bag away...
& change back to my home clothes...

things do happen...yet i have to learn to adapt to it fast...
i wasn't able to if my mum didnt cool me down..
sometimes that little advice make alot of difference..

omg...where was my patience...
what happen to me...
i use to think back for whatever happens...it happens for a reason...

glad that its over...my tension is ended...
haiz...well...see that chocz indulge cake!!
yummzz...from secret recipe...!

i still can taste the choczz!! hehe:p
thanx baby...
one of the things that can make my day! choccczzzz!!

not wanting to continue about my bad things that happen...
am waiting to go out later...hoping to get to buy gifts for my twins sis...& my mum...
what to buy ar?? hehe...though till wondering...

...NG...

Saturday, June 2, 2007

bunglow! ♥ 8:00 PM

weeee....pics are here....tanx to nini....hehe:p mmuackzz!

just look at that view...GOD's creation....:) it was so0 nicee to see the sun rise...

oopzzz...not ready lah!! but still nice candid...heheh:p

my sweeties...my cuzziezz!! & thats not even half of them...:)

had fun taking pics!! this is only a few of them though...lolzz...well...had fun all the way...wish to stay longer but cant...maybe next year ya!! & this time round my close cuzzie yaya will be there...heheh...:p missing her so0 much...

...NG...

Friday, June 1, 2007

what the... ♥ 12:42 PM

i had a great week...forgetting all the bad moments though...
was able to go to bunglow at pasir ris with my family...
it was fantastic...i had a really great time...

though am not talking about it now...
will wait for my cuzzie to send the pics...
& also coz im not in the mood...

am looking forward to meet up my bestie...
am not feeling in the mood at all...
all im thinking is u....yet no reply...

maybe its menses...
period....

...NG...