Sunday, December 31, 2006
bored... ♥
10:50 PM
am juz typing in coz im so0 freaking bored!
he's working...
working...
tired...
sleep...
sleeep...
haiz...
i do have to understand...
thats what gonna happen to me when i start working...
well...am not prepared for that...
i juz thought i could still be me...
now...
so0 free...
when i graduate...im no more a student...
izzit that what freedom is?
kinda of rite?
but if u start working...u're back...like in school...
juz that u're on your own now...
every move will be notice...
every single mistake u make is so0 vital...
omg...
its even worse then my nitemare!
but...thats life...
there is happy moments...
& bad moments...
so0 take it...live with it...
arghhh!!
what in the world am i talking about now...
shessh...! am real bored...
think i should juz shut my eye...
well..i would be in my bed now...
its juz me...
always thinking....
...NG...
Friday, December 29, 2006
what now.... ♥
12:53 PM
sometimes things juz dont go the way you want it to be...u can plan things...but its HE who decides...happy anni to me....well...he's busy...though i know he remembers...won't be able to meet...
hating it so0...
was suppose to meet my fren to0 to take my previous pay...
now am at home...bored...
he's asleep...
juz finish cleaning the house...
waiting to eat lunch...though not in the mood...
but will have to eat if mum is at home...
& dad has already cook lunch...
so0 i guess i have to eat...juz like this morning...
it seems that after one problem is solve...another one would juz come up...
well...life is never easy...in this world...nothing is easy....
been thinking alot about my future....
u know...i stayed up late yesterday to write this beautiful note of mine in my personal diary...
i was so0 excited to let that someone know...
to let that someone see what i wrote...
to see that someone's reaction...
but i guess not today...
will have to postpone it again...
as i say things dont go the way you want to...
i planned everything...
was thinking how happy i would be...with this special day....
well...never expect things...dont ever expect things to happen...
juz let thingz be...
juz go through it day by day...
that'z what i have been doing...all my life...
now it leads me here...
to a path where i need to choose...
one wrong move & there goes my future...
i have no idea life is so0 tough...
i have no idea it is so0 complicated...
i have no idea what to do...
yet i have to decide where i wanna go...
what i wanna do...
every single day of my life...
i would think....
before i shut my eye...
what would tomorrow be...
am i gonna be here?
will i still continue my life this way?
crying all night long juz coz things arent going my way...
then again...
GOD has planned everything...
that's what i know...that's what my love ones have been telling me...
am waiting for that day...
where i can be happy with what i have done...
be proud with it all my life...
...NG...
Monday, December 25, 2006
♥
9:43 PM
well...can't deny that he is in my life now...i love my family....& he's my 2nd love one....hmm...he's really a great guy...i know people don't go around praising their guy...
but i juz feel like it...hehehe:p
he's the one if GOD let us be together til the end of time...
coz HE is the one who decides for us...for its in HIS hands...
hmm...a little something about this guy of mine...
he likes to joke around alot! funny guy lah....love his jokes...
like every other guy...they care about their girls...but he...is extra caring...:)
scolds me when i need scolding...
loves me for who i am...
be mad at me for doing wrong things...
does alot of sacrifices for me though he doesnt admits it...
try his very best to make me happy...
advices me if i have any problems..
lends me a shoulder to cry on...
always..always..make me tink about my future...
ask me if anyone has bullied me in sch...lol! sweet rite...i know..:p
thanx for everything that u have done...
i am grateful to have u with me...
lup ya always!
juz hope that our love will be forever...
til the end of time...
...NG...
Sunday, December 24, 2006
♥
11:09 PM
people do have thier deep darkest secrets...
& they would try their best not to tell anyone...
they would want it gone if they could...
but what is done IS done...
itz hard to keep it...
itz even harder when u finally have to tell it out...
some people would rather tell it out then to keep it coz its is a burden to them...
when some...would rather keep it to themself..
bcoz they do not want to hurt that person...
bcoz they love them to0 much to let them know about it...
they would rather suffer...then the other party...
a fren of mine once told me that...
not everyone in this world is perfect...
even me & u....we do have our own mistakes...
its understandable that the secrect may be a big blow at first...
we would have to think in a positive way..
everything happens for a reason...
even if its a bad thing...it always happens for a reason...
HE knows what HE is doing....
HE wants the best for us....
so0 take it slow...
not everything would go ur way...
not everything you want would be granted...
so0 juz appreciate life as it is...
& be happy with who u are...
be glad with whoever that u have in ur life...
people make mistakes...
if they really regret of what they have done...
then good for them...
forgive them...& give them a chance...
remember...we to0 have our own weakness...
no one in this world is perfect...
...NG...
♥
10:35 PM
why? i dunno why this is happening...
why am i like this...am hating it so0 much...
venting my anger...
been crying for the past few dayz...
thinking about me...my future...
it juz makes me feel scared...
me into the world of working life...
in juz a few more mnthz time...
& yet to have a stable job...
or a JOB!!
my family...
whom i love most...
which i sumtimes neglect...
though i feel that i have been much closer for the past few dayz...
we have spend most of the time together...dats good...
coz i know i will be busy once i start my attachment...
& i will be caught up with case studies...
catching up with my frenz...classmates...
its our last year...& will be out there in the cruel world...
i know myself that i have done alot of mistakes...
i really really hope i can change & be a better person...
much much better from now onwards....
am praying hard to be so0...
...NG...
Saturday, December 23, 2006
♥
8:35 PM
woah....
now wondering wat to do for my holidayz....
wanted to work at ritz abit longer but cant..
hmph...
anw...i went to met my granny today...
was so0 happy to see her...
its been quite a while since i last saw her...
though she has a diff religion...
she's still my granny....
love her so0!
but bcoz we wasnt close to each other...
dont talk that much...
though i know she love us to0...
...NG...
Thursday, December 21, 2006
♥
9:16 PM
not feeling good...work was as usual...lots of things...still backaching...with my flu!omg...am gonna be sick lah k...having headaches more often...due to my diff sleep pattern...lolz...slp late lah watelse...
but am really feeling down ar...why? i dunno...i need to go shopping...i need to go out...juz wanna walk around...maybe at the beach...sumone was suppose to bring me there after examz...
still yet to go there...haiz...
am feeling so0 bored...juz off my hp...to be alone...& oso to charge it as well...long time never switch off hp sia...well...are u suppose to? nyehehe...:p
" what do u want me to do? am i being bad? i did apologize...u said u're not angry...well..why are u doing this to me?"
i couldnt work juz now...honestly...i kept on looking at my hp...juz waiting for us to be ok...arghhh! hate this feeling...i know im at fault...i know i can be abit sensitive...
well..oklah...almost everytime i am...but...i know it...im not emo!!! juz sensitive!
haiz...am gonna try to sleep...w/o any nitemares...i hope...
gonna go work at 9am tmr!! hope i can occupy myself with work!
hehehe:p
weee....wanna let go of myself...tmr last day...gonna miss my memberz once again!
dunno when we will be able to meet again...missing all my room service memberz! honorbar! & amenitiezz....u guys are the best...!
muackzz!! love u all!!
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
woah....tired! ♥
11:40 PM
woah...work was hectic on 19 dec...
went to work at 0830 hrs....finish at 1930 hrs...!!!!
11 hrs of work leh...but $$...hehehe:p
i know...i know...must take care of my health to0...
coz the previous day juz went ice skating & bowling...
then next day work morning...
phewww...
but no matter what i had fun!! as usual my memberzz!
heheh...keep on joking ard & laughing all the way..
though we still do our work ok!
having back ache now...lesg aching to0 again...
had heavy things to carry...& lots & lots of walking up & down of the corridors...checking the rooms...sending amenities...
working again on 21 dec!! co0l!
ice skating! bowling! ♥
11:04 PM
omg! we went ice-skating on 18 dec! wee....so0 much fun! all of us skate though it was our 1st time...mummy took pics for us...met abg at jurong...had to wake up early lah!
but its ok...seldom we have any family outing together...coo0l ya...
all my sis manage to skate coz they noe how to blade...so0 easier for them...
me..my bro & my dad...was trying our best to skate...it was so0 much fun...
well...i cant deny i did fall a few times..
but we learn from mistakes..lolz!
though it was freezzing in dere...actually our feet got cold...& we had to rest..& to0k out our skates...we had 2 hrs to skate...i got the hang of it...so0 fun!! heheh:p wanna go again...maybe with my peepzz...:)
then after that we went to eat lunch at my FAV fast food! wherelse...longjohn ar...heheh:p
went for our prayers at AL-MUKMININ mosque...was a new mosque...very nicee...
then we decided to go BOWLING!! woah...but wasnt sure where...lucky my buddy,shah help me out...was lost at jurong at one point...wanted to go home...but finally manage to get the right plc...THANX SHAH...dun tink we would reach dere w/o his help...lolzz:p
omg...we had so0 much laughter dere...competing with each other...hehe:p
so0 exciting...watching my family...juz wish the day wouldn't end...
we played twice!! couldn't resist lah! had to play one more time...heheh..
at first wen i play...always kena the gutter...! lolzz! but after a few rounds...manage to even got 2 strike!! so0 proud ar...hehehe...weeeeee!!
then of coz hav to go home lah...spend so0 much liao..!! but it was worthwhile...hopefully we can do this again...next year...next time...:)
.......byezzz.........
Sunday, December 17, 2006
omg...am so0 tired! ♥
9:45 PM
woah...went to work juz now...
was so0 much fun! met up wif all my frenz there...
they still remember us! so0 co0l!
heheh...
though im so0 exhausted now...omg!
but i juz so0 love working there wif all my memberz!
went home ard 830pm...
so0 tired!! my legs aching coz went in alot of rooms in diff levels...my back aching due to the carrying of all the heavy things...that was the beverages from the frigde...
yumzyumz...the chocolates in there were so0 so0 tempting...!!!! hehehe:p
tmr not gg to work as im gg out wif my beloved family...going bowling & ice skating...
i tink...weee...! cant wait...
well see my members back at work on wed! cant wait!
ZzzZzzz...!!
Saturday, December 16, 2006
my best buddy.. ♥
6:05 AM
haiz...gonna miss that long ride to bus...will either juz read my notez or juz enjoy the music in my discman...now mp3 lah...hehe...:pbut the thing i will miss most is spending that time wif my best buddy rachel...
she has been there for me for everything...
really gonna miss her so0 much...
sobsob...
that will be me now in that pic alone...without her by my side to tease her...to pour out my feelings to her...about my previous day or juz when i hav an arguement at home or wif my guy...
to share my breakfast wif her...:)
to share tips on what to learn for test or examzz...
to ask for advice from her about everything...& i mean everything!
somtimes she do tells me things...but i will always be the one who has a story to tell...& she will be there listening pateintly to what i wanna say...
though she's now attach...she will still have time for me...how i wish things wouldnt change...
how i wish she will be here wif me through this rough time...that is when i get a job...with the new environment...juz wish she will be there to say its ok...to calm me down if anyone juz scream at my face...to let me know that everything will be ok...& that things always happen for a reason...
surely there will be a good reason for it...she will make me think positive when im down...
she will make me feel so0 much better even if i'm still in tears & i would smile coz she's there to console me...
people would say that's what frens are for...
well...i would say that rachel is not a fren...she's more like my sister...though we come from 2 diff religion...i juz wanna wish her all the best...& that she will be happy when she's married wif my dear fren vj...
i know...suddenly im so0 emo...well...i've juz got to tell everyone who she is in my life...
coz i will never ever forget her...she's juz not some people who come in & go...
she's a part of me...& im glad that she's my fren...
will be missing her so0 after we graduate...she will be in KKH...& me...still wondering where to work...:p
emo nottigal signing outzz....
Friday, December 15, 2006
missing my JR0504D!! ♥
6:40 AM
oh my...
missing my dear frenz in school...
will miss my dearest classmates...
ohh...how will i miss dat phrase "like anything" from our FAV lecturer...
& of coz our dear dear mdm angel...love her so0...
the memories of us together as a class will be forever kept in my heart...
2 yrs juz pass so0 fast...
us keep on complaining abt how long our lecture will be...how boring it is...
asking to go back early...cursing when the cafe is pack...
all that is gone...now its left with memories...
beautiful...& bad memories...
no more sleeping in class or lecture...
no more sab's"abnormal behaviour..."
no more cha's fantasy qns abt human body...
no more amal & her gang laughing away with sab's imitation of tingz...
no more sweets passing ard by shah!
no more running during s&w!! phewww....:p
no more maj wif her pluck..plucker!
no more of me...cha...& maj...sitting together in class joking...gossiping...studying...
so0 many things happen...
gonna miss u all so0 so0 much...
really hope we will still keep in touch...
u guys & gals are the best...i have never regret knowing u all...
my class JR0504D is my 2nd family....muackz...muackzz:)
miss u all...
all the best ya in ur final attachment...
will be waiting to meet u all at prom nite!! must come ar!!
Thursday, December 14, 2006
my new bloggy!!! ♥
8:06 PM
elozz!!at last i manage to do this bloggy!!
weee....
all thanx to my 3 sisters...& my cuzzie...
woah...i know...so0 many pple help...
this is what happen when u know nuts about computer...
hehehe:p
well...i DID it...erm....we did it..lolzz:p
hmm...yesterday 1st time went shopping on my own!! hmph...no one could follow me...
went to buy shoe..accessories...& chocolates!!!
yumzzyumzz...!!
then today...gg out again...buying skirt...should be gg with rachel...but still yet to confirm with her...:)
ohhyah...skirt for my work at ritzz for a week...can't wait to meet all my memberz there!! miss them so0!!
ok ok...i tink i better get gg...
will update laterzz....