Sunday, July 29, 2007
my date... ♥
8:36 PM
weeeee....
like finally i met u!!!
& as usual something came up...
but we still meet...
mmmuackzz!!
i had planned everything but had to change the venue...
that was my biggest mistake...
going to tampines after work...
& i couldn't find the shop...
u know what shop...
NIKE!!! no NIKE SHOP!!!
not in tampines mall OR century square...
OMG!!! i was so0 frustrated...
i really wanted to buy shoe...
for him!!
it is gonna be our 1st year anni tmr...
so i thought that was a great gift for him...
arghh!!! hate it...
we have to travel to another place...
& i was short of time...
like seriously!!
i had to be home fast...& to0 bad it was raining...
we took a cab to marina square...
the best place....my fav!!
& yes...he got the shoe...
though i haven had any pics of it...
forgot to snap a pic ar...
it was a beauty...i mean...niceee...hehe..
blue design on white shoe...
i like! he loves it to0...:)
happy 1st year anni to my sadik...we were talking on the phone last night...
& we talked about the 1st day we met...
how it all started...
*sweet*
...*giggles*...the happy moments...
insha-allah we will be stronger...
together forever...
mmuackzz!!
he loves me for who i am...
he knows when i'm angry...
he will be the one who makes me smile when i'm down...
he knows how to make me laugh...
he understands me...
he tolerates my nonsense...
he knows about my bad-tempered-ness...
he's the only one who can calls me 'kental' & i wont be angry about it...
he's the only one who came over during hari raya to meet my family for the 1st time...
he knows how to 'manje2' & apologize if he's in the wrong...
he just loves to stare into my eyes & say he sayang me...
this is only half of it...
i can go on writing....:p
omg...am i to0 open...am i to0 mushy....
well...i dont care...
coz i LOVE him to0!!
mmmuackzz!!!
hope we will be together til the end...:)
...NG...
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
ohhh gosh...the fun! ♥
7:34 AM
my my my...
yesterday was superb!!
met up with my deariess..
fiza...niah...& ain!!!!
1st i met up with my dear fiza...
she went bank to open up an account...
savings account sey...
anw...that took like more than an hour!!!
gosh...but nvm...then ain came...
i was like really really starving!!!!
i had my rest but not my food!!
so0 after that LONG waiting...
went to pray 1st...
then off to pizzahut...
at lucky plaza...why there...ask fiza...
hehehehe!!!!
so0 we ordered our food 1st...
met hana...fiza's classmate...
she's wrking dere....
then...waited for our dearie-who's-always-late...
heheh...joking2....
well...!! lolzzz...:p
miss her super lotss!!
we talked...about work...about life...
miss them so0 much...
i tink we were there for almost 2 hours...
laughing & joking away...
so0 much fun...well....!! lolzz....
then went for prayers again...then off to photo taking...
so0 random...we were just walking towards the mrt...
then decided to take a seat in taka...
that's where the fun starts!!
though am not having the pics now...
its with ain...waiting for her to send me...
i only have lil pics...
of ME....heheh..
fiza...& ain...sorie niah...u tkde...heheh...:p
later then i upload our pics...
love them lots!!
mmmuackzz!!
really enjoyed myself...
though get scolding when i went home...
guess what time...10pm!!!
heheh!! & to tink of it...
it WAS rather late...
i went out at 3pm...come home at 10pm...
:p sorie mum...
she was worried...
no matter...im fine...
back home safely...alhamdulilah...:)
pics...some pics plz....!!! randomly taken!!....:p
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taken while waiting for fiza to kol...*pure boredom-ness!!*
sorie niah...she was outside waiting for us...lolz...
me...& my glasses...fuyoo...hehehe....
fiza wanted some fame to0....fuyooo...hehehe...*hearts her lots* was at the bank waiting!!uploading of other pics will be up so0n...
so0...plz....wait...
:)
will miss u girls lots!!
esp niah & ain!!!
fiza oso lah...like we have time to talk eventhough we work the same place...
right?? right fiza....??
hehehe...:p
love u girls...shall do this again next pay ok...*winkzz*
...NG...
Saturday, July 21, 2007
the talk.... ♥
11:11 AM
i had "the talk"...
u know the talk which teenagers would like to get away from...
since i was finally at home & they were free...
but after the talk i realize...
that it actually had benefited me....
really....seriously...
i was kinda grateful that we talked...
its been awhile since i had talked to them to0...
i was kinda scared to go inside their room...
coz i remember the 1st time i had to go in ALONE...
with both of them just staring & questioning me...
THAT was horrible...
never will i forget that moment...
smiles were gone from thier faces...
but this time round was just...
advising...talking...reminding...
thank u...:)
what is it about....
well...that's just between me & them...
hehehe:p
work is going by smoothly...nothing major...
YET....
as usual when im free on my bed...
my mind will wonder away...
thinking about the future things...
not really sure where im heading to...
with whom...with what...
knowing things...thinking things....
fears...tears...
being emotional again...?
maybe...but i do love to think...
wait...i lovee to dream!!
not think...but those dreams...
sometimes ain't gonna happen...
scary?
yes it is...
life is...
will i ever see u again...
...NG...
Thursday, July 19, 2007
sad... ♥
11:18 AM
knowing that u're going...
even before seeing me...
tears just stream down my face...
knowing that it was a mistake...
no one at fault...
just feeling terribly sad
knowing that i had plan things...
& yet we have to change it...
coz HE plans & makes things happen for a reason...
knowing that i miss u...
& i cant change my plans either next week...
so0 just let it be...
knowing that i ignored u yesterday...
coz i was angry & frustrated...
that was just an emotion that wont last long...
knowing that it is just a simple problem...
which can be solved...
yet i make it as if its a major thing...
knowing that u won't be reading this...
not until i tell u t0...
why do bother writing right...
knowing that i just spoil my own mood...
& weekend that was suppose to be for us...
& a special month that i was super lo0king forward to0...
knowing i made plans for the last week...
then changed...
knowing i made plans yet again this week...
then changed again...
that's the MAIN reason why i hate planning....
but a BIGGER problem if no plans done...
so0 what do u do...
just go with the flow...
just let things be the way it is...
& not drag things like i always do...
in the end...
its my fault for being like this right...
ya...it is...
...NG...
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
HARRY POTTER ♥
9:21 PM
go n watch harry potter before u read this post... coz im gonna spill the beans!! weeeeeeee......
woohooo!!
just watch harry potter movie with maj & cha...
like FINALLY!!!!
it was 'bloody brilliant'...
as wat RON would say...
hehehe:p
AWESOME!!
can i watch again!
lolzz...
met up with my gals at j8...
hugzz& kisses...
the time pass pretty fast...
we had fun, laughter & saddness in the cinema...
while eating away our goodies....
popcorn..nachoz..pasta..sweet corn...COKE!!
the KISS was pretty long dont u tink...
hehehe...
harry really grew up...a hunk!
ron was taller though...still handsome...
& hermoine was pretty as always...love her!
the action was great...
i like the fighting scene...
was superb!
but not until sirius was killed...:(
it happened in a flash...
& he was gone...
gosh...it was like...pooff...& he died...
ohh...said more than enough here...
still... it was GREAT!!!
i knew it would be...
harry potter fans!!!
weeeeeeeeeeeeee....
sadly i had to rush home after the movie...
didnt even manage to get a pic... with my gals...
maybe next time ya!!
mmmuackzz!!
all aside...i've still yet to talk to u...
i know my mistake...
i didnt let u in...
i just didnt feel good..
i wasn't myself..
u know me..
if i start thinking about things...
sorie...
...NG...
Monday, July 16, 2007
woohoo...what a week... ♥
4:26 PM
woah...like finally...
what a week!!!
been busy working...
just finish my nite...
AGAIN...
my 2nd week nite alrdy...
its just so0 fast...
& my checklist is DUE...
though i still got 3 mnths...
but i need to hand it in ealry...
haiz....
so0 much about work...
my life...is so0 darm tiring!!!
boring?? nah...
am gonna watch my fav movie tmr wif majie...& hopefully cha to0...:)
after that back to WORK....
that's life....
though i've been going through quite a lo0ng ride at work...
things heard....things said...
things done...
i've just got so0 much to talk about...
but am just keeping it a hush hush to myself...
no harm done....
the more i say...
the more gossip...
the more trouble....
im a different girl...
when im at work...
when im at home...
when im with my frens...
ain't know why...
though the anger thing is still the same...
its gonna be a year for us...
wow...
like....a year....
THAT'S FAST...
thinking of the future just scares me...
financial...education...workload...
at times i do think that i just wanna leave it to that...
but i cant...im not alone...
i cant think about myself no more...
i want to upgrade...poly? SN?
cash....$$
time...
lots of time...
yet to be confirm...
am still thinking...
of everything...
it aint easy...i've been thinking...
everytime...me...u & everything else...
am still young...
i still can study...
aunts & uncles are expecting me to go poly as my next step...
my mum says of coz its up to me...
its my life...
i so0 want to go abroad....& work...gain experience...
all in all...
money is always in my way...
of everything that i want...
& not everything i can get...
that's for sure...
thinking about love...marriage...family...
work...money...study...
they are just 2 different things...
that are so0 apart...
i've got to choose...
confirmation...pending...
we've still yet to meet...
& talk...about things...
yet everytime we meet its not a good time to talk...
when? where?
how can i say...? where do i start?
just so0 many things in mind....
living life like this thinking ALL the time is not good...
stop dreaming...
start living...
i envy my parents ever so0 much...
to have all the 5 of us here...
now...still surviving...living each day with each other...happily...:)
ohh god...
guide me through this...
am forever lost in this maze...
...NG...
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
my picsss...beautiful! ♥
9:58 PM
ohh....my off day is just sleeping....house work...sleeping...
& eating....on the lappy....tv....
munching....on the lappy again...
i did some photo editing....
my own creation....
WA-LAAA.....:)
spend quite some time on it...
though i cant upload it in friendster...
to0 biggy!!
missing my buddiess so0 much...
wait i have another one also...
TA-DAA...
fuh....my eyes are watery...
need to sleep so0n...
need to sleep now....
gosh...time really flies...
hoping to meet my frenz so0n...
wanna watch movie with me??
(the pics are kinda blocked coz the pics to0 large...so just click on it to view)
...NG...
Saturday, July 7, 2007
what they call....boring! ♥
4:05 PM
for now...chocz are what im lo0king for!!!
coz im feeling so0 yucky....
tiredness+crazziness+moddyness...
when im mad dont talk to me...when im trying to make things right don't piss me off...
when i say im not in the mood just go away...
that's my terrible...ego-ness i have in me...
i may be a person who hides anger...
but if its to0 much...i'll explode...
i know i maybe at fault...for the things i've said...
i apologize...i know i can go over board sometimes...
working life is still the same...
now pressurize by my own NO's...
coz of my checklist...
had my nite duty...had all my 3 shifts DONE...
bad talk...nicee talk...
as what my mum says..'that's just a part & parcel of working world..'
negative remarks...taken in...
but taking it as a challenge...
say what u want...
i've never shown any temper or attitude...
im just doing my JOB...
at home...am trying my best to take part in all the chores that i can do...day off means=cleaning day...
day off means=spending time with my family...
day off means=going out with frens...
day off means= meeting him...
i have only ONE day off each week...
Important ones 1st...
er...which one??
im thinking that im just to0 much for u...
u've been tolerating me ever since...
sometimes i feel like i should be on my own...
i do get jealous over other people around me...
i want this...i want that...
but i always say im lucky enough...to have what i have now...
but sometimes its not wrong to want things...
to dream about having it...
being surprise with even small things that happen...
can u understand what im trying to say...
am i going around the bush to0 much...
i dont like talking straight forward...u know that...
maybe i should just keep it all to myself...
but yet u will get angry...
wait do u even know who im talking to??
heheh...:p
watever fana...
i'll just do whatever i want to...
not bothering u anymore...
u wont even know im talking to u...
coz i know u wont even read....
what's the use right...
making u angry is just the last thing i want to do...
im just confusing myself now...
sometimes being urself could hurt others...
so0 i'll just...hmm...don't know...
*bored*....
...NG...
Friday, July 6, 2007
♥
12:15 AM
its been quite a while since i last blog...
been busy with work...
& stuff...
had alot of things to say...
but was just TOO tired...
to type it all out...
anw...i just finish my nite duty...
wooohooo...
it was fantastic...:)
though to be honest i was really tired/exhauted...
just now at about 5am my 2nd day nite shift...
my mind was else where...everything i hear had to be repeated...
LOL...
suddenly it just went BLANK...
hehehe...:p but still manage to do my work...
i think i know the reason why that happen...
bcoz i went out after my 1st nite shift...
when i was suppose to be sleeping at hoME!!!
i just wanted to spend some time with my him...
& went to catch the 1st show TRANSFORMERS...
at 11.30am...then went straight home...
just to get 3 hours of sleep before going to work...
like...DUH....of coz that's the reason why...
SILLY me...note to self...DONT DO THAT AGAIN....
im just missing my buddies...my frens...my partners...my so call listening-advising-gossiping frenzz!!!
mmmuackzzzz!!
rac is busy working at KKH...
mira still studying...
kaveeta...hmmm...still waiting for her GOOD news...
maj...working & having fun at CGH...
cha...also working...not so sure how she is though....lolzz:p
ain...busy at CDC...tetap relax je...heheh:)
niah...working already...still yet to meet up...
kak nad...starting s0on...
is...dah start NS...
aishah...also working at KKH...with saras...
yana...i think working at IMH...
my other attchment frenz...my classmatesss...
where r u people...hehehe...
missing u all so0 much!! hope they are doing great!!
& of coz...fiza....
am missing her tonnesss...& tonnnesss...
can't wait to see her on monday...
hmm...wonder if she has lost some more weight...
i know u miss me to0!!
hehehe...mmmuackzz:)
nicee the pic!! heheh...personally made it for this...
lolzz...
*yawns...* haiz...i think i better sleep again...:p
...NG...