Sunday, September 16, 2007
back to work ♥
12:27 PM
woah...its been a week now....
alhamdulilah...i spend it well with my family...
during this fasting month...
thanx to fiza again...for doing my nite shift...
which i had to do last minute...
on my leave days...
thinking of going back to work....
its great...& sad to0...
coz i know i cant celebrate raye with my family...
like we use to...
due to work scedules...
& im hoping to get at least an off day during raye...
checklist is yet to be submitted...
NO's is already asking why there's still empty components...
tmr will insha-allah get it all sign...
but still yet to know...
it could be busy...it could be chaotic...
but still i think its better that im going back...
i need to work...i cant be at home for long...
would definately forget what to do...
when i was cleaning up my place...
i saw all my O level books...
how am i suppose to go back to them when my mind is ready set...
its already set thinking that i wont touch them anymore...
now because of my low grades in ITE...
i have to think twice...
i'm definately not up to it...
but now...do i have a choice?
going to poly its what my parents want...
but what do i want?
it is better to upgrade...
but the stress...the responsibility is HUGE...
u know from an AN to a SN...
is no big fun...
its like stepping into a difficult world...
where medicines are involve...
where tones of reports are to be done...
where theories change now & then...
where educating the families are given...
where responsibilities is all on you...
where you have to be good & be extra outstanding to upgrade further...
this is what i see as a SN...the stress they go through...i know...i see them...
but some may see as bigger cash...
some may see as bigger opportunity to go further...
some may see as at least u have respect from the rest...
some may see as its a goner if u just stay as an AN...
some just cant see that their old friends from school is on a higher post...
yet these are just the things that is stuck in my head...
is being an AN for life that bad?
they still got a job...
but i see it as a good thing...
coz...i just wanna live my life...
go back home to my family...
not bothered with the things at work...
though i know i will be going through the same routine...
like for the next few years down the road...
but is it that BAD as what people say...
maybe because some say we gain better respect if we upgrade...
honestly...for now...
i lovee my job...
i lovee the fact that i can help the patient more...
rather than typing or writing my report away...
or busy giving out medicines...
or just plainly doing thier work...
i'm not saying that being SN is a nono...
its just some points of view...
from me...
yet im still thinking...
my career...
my family...
my life...
...NG...