Monday, February 12, 2007
not my day... ♥
9:17 PM
down with flu now....juz ate panadol...haiz....today was juz real bad...
not my day at all...
i was so0 lo0king forward to work today...
since i had nite shift last week...
i thought i could work peacefully...
1st thing i got was scolding...
& i got it for nothing...
coz i didnt do anything wrong...
so i let it be...
then it goes on again...
& again....i juz control myself...
the whole day she was there...
watching over me...
every move...everything i do...
i was like in a prison for a day...
when i wasn't in sight...
she panic...& ask all the staff...
i was juz next door...
picking up things...
wat is wrong??
i juz kept on thinking...
wat did i do wrong dat day....
did i make her angry...
i didnt see her for almost a week...
& i have no clue why she's like dat...
til my day ends...& she left w/o saying a word...
i told all my frenz about it...
she was ok with the rest...
but why pin-point at me...
if i had done something wrong then tell...
why do i have to go through this...
might as well tell...& i learn from it then doing it this way...
i was really pressurize...
even when i was doing my skill...
i had it in mind...but when she was there...i couldnt think...
she was suppose to be by our side...
guiding us...but i cant seem to see her doing that today...
why....im still curious....
if i had the guts to confront her & ask...
but i juz couldnt...
i dont want to make it a big fuss...
but am i?
am i in the wrong to ask...
am i in the wrong to know...
all my frenz juz ask me to hold on...
juz be calm & go through it...
but do they know how i feel....
if this is going to continue...
i dunno if i can...i hope i can...
u know...tahan...
...NG...