Friday, December 29, 2006
what now.... ♥
12:53 PM
sometimes things juz dont go the way you want it to be...u can plan things...but its HE who decides...happy anni to me....well...he's busy...though i know he remembers...won't be able to meet...
hating it so0...
was suppose to meet my fren to0 to take my previous pay...
now am at home...bored...
he's asleep...
juz finish cleaning the house...
waiting to eat lunch...though not in the mood...
but will have to eat if mum is at home...
& dad has already cook lunch...
so0 i guess i have to eat...juz like this morning...
it seems that after one problem is solve...another one would juz come up...
well...life is never easy...in this world...nothing is easy....
been thinking alot about my future....
u know...i stayed up late yesterday to write this beautiful note of mine in my personal diary...
i was so0 excited to let that someone know...
to let that someone see what i wrote...
to see that someone's reaction...
but i guess not today...
will have to postpone it again...
as i say things dont go the way you want to...
i planned everything...
was thinking how happy i would be...with this special day....
well...never expect things...dont ever expect things to happen...
juz let thingz be...
juz go through it day by day...
that'z what i have been doing...all my life...
now it leads me here...
to a path where i need to choose...
one wrong move & there goes my future...
i have no idea life is so0 tough...
i have no idea it is so0 complicated...
i have no idea what to do...
yet i have to decide where i wanna go...
what i wanna do...
every single day of my life...
i would think....
before i shut my eye...
what would tomorrow be...
am i gonna be here?
will i still continue my life this way?
crying all night long juz coz things arent going my way...
then again...
GOD has planned everything...
that's what i know...that's what my love ones have been telling me...
am waiting for that day...
where i can be happy with what i have done...
be proud with it all my life...
...NG...